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All day I’ve been thinking of possible answers to this question. It looks simple, but when you get to open your mind, it seems difficult to explain. This is just a random thought running through my head and with all of the thinking, I still have no clue.

So, “Why can’t I see myself?” or rather, “Why can’t we see ourselves?” A dumb question yet so deep. We are blinded by our own existence. Yes, we have eyes to see. But these eyes are not the ones who see us. We only see ourselves if there’s an instrument used like mirrors and reflections. Is there really an explanation? Or am I just stupid not to understand?

Without mirrors, without those reflections, how can we identify our own identity? Imagine life without those so-called instruments. Probably we are still wondering what we look like. Or maybe we generally “think” that we are someone we’re not. Everything gets so confusing.

Why is it that others can see us? They can view us from head to toe. But we can’t. We can see our body, our feet, our hands, but not our face. See my point? This observation can be partnered with the popular quote “To see is to believe.” Ok, Seeing is believing. But the question is, “Why do we believe that we exist when in the first place we cannot see the ‘complete’ us?” All we see is our body parts below the neck. Does that mean we are us?

Of course, our eyes are placed in our head that’s why we can see only from our chest to our feet. We cannot see our whole back completely without twisting and turning our torso. But, why? Why is it that our eyes are positioned in such a way that we see things in a perspective, while the rest are still waiting for others to see them? Sorry for being skeptical. I just think not all questions can be answered by simple answers.

We all cannot see ourselves. Even animals. Scientifically, we humans can see everything within 180 degrees. That is why we cannot see our backs when we look straight ahead. Half of what we see are all in front. Everything is at the back except if we twist or turn. Some animals can see the back but not exactly the whole 360 degrees. At some point their eyes are just placed at the sides, instead of the front. Example is a goat, or a cow, or a horse. Their eyes are at the side. They can see the whole 180 degrees in front, the other 180 degrees at the right and 180 also at the left. But then, same thing, they cannot see their backs. Like us humans.

Everybody knows that we have eyes and that we can see ourselves, heck, we even take pictures of ourselves. But, those are just instruments. Can’t we use our eyes to see our faces just like how we see others’? I just can’t figure out why. We can see them, yet we can’t see us. Maybe life is like a big mystery with all of the questions waiting for answers. Oh well. Too much thinking leads to more confusions.. Lets just say I’m so DUMB I haven’t seen the mirror lately. haha!

This article is just a random thing. Again this was made without any basis on books or other references except for her own understanding and experience. Not all things stated are true. These are all her opinions.

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“I treat him as a normal person. I think there’s nothing wrong with him having multiple personalities. He is just as normal as us. Treating him as an abnormal being would just make his condition worse.”

Last week, we were invited to have dinner with people in the Medical and Business industry. It was great to interact with them because I have learned so much, since they are now working as professionals. My aunt and I were there to have a get together - thus I was the only 17-year-old in the whole group.

Three hours before the dinner, I went to my aunt’s office. I was surprised that her friend is there sitting at the side and having coffee with the doctor - “tita doc” as I may call her. I greeted them and hurriedly grabbed a bottle of water. I sat there and listened to their conversation. Little did I know that my aunt’s friend (the one who was sitting, we can call him Joseph - name is changed for privacy) escaped from the hospital because he wants to explain some things to my aunt.

He was permitted to leave the hospital to have his hair cut with the condition that he will be accompanied by a guardian. He was only given Php100. Joseph is smart. He used the money to go to my aunt’s office leaving his guardian clueless of his whereabouts. Obviously, he is a schizophrenic - that is the diagnosis of his doctors.

Back to their conversation, my aunt was shocked when Joseph told her that he escaped. She immediately called up Tita Doc because Joseph is their highschool classmate. Joseph has no place to go because if he went back to his mom, he will be sent back to the hospital. He has suffered a lot. As far as I know, he was placed in a room with a jacket restraint. (Imagine that) And I can’t even believe that he is there talking to them as if everything’s the way they were. Their conversation was perfectly spoken in English.

So then, we went to the dinner. Joseph told us the whole story of his escape and he said “I really don’t understand why they should confine me there. I can see things in another dimension, I guess people just can’t understand. I can see demons and that is why I’m trying my best to send them away. I can see ‘The Light’. I can’t control what I’m seeing.”

He was caught climbing on someone else’s roof but he explained that there’s a demon there. (When I heard this, things are getting more interesting). My aunt asked him if he is aware of the situation. He replied that he knows that he could see things and that he is diagnosed with schizophrenia. He is also conscious of the world around him. He can even manage to solve mathematical problems. He is really intelligent. But having multiple personalities… Maybe it is just a social norm that when that person is tagged “abnormal” he is no longer considered a human being… (that’s the way i see it, though)

The point is this… We should treat people like Joseph normally. I don’t know why people make fun of them. They are still human. Because maybe treating them that way, might make them feel better. I don’t know. I’m not a doctor. I am just looking at this issue with no background (psychological and medical basis), thus this is just direct observation and conclusion.

* Joseph is now staying in a safe place - no way near the hospital… My aunt will be explaining this to his parents…

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“I sat on her bed silently observing everything that is happening around. She passed by and asked me how I was. I said I was fine. She then sat on the chair, checked herself out in the mirror, and that is when the BOSSA FEVER started.”

ADRENALINE RUSH

It was about 9:30am when ate rachel texted me if I know a good make up artist. That time, our clinical instructor was delivering her speech. So, I replied to her that I know some people. Three grueling hours of texting and calling every person in my mind, convincing them that they are needed by the one and only bossa nova princess, I managed to have Dondon to do the job. He was preoccupied with his jobs but he made sure that he can do her too.

When the program was over, I hurriedly ran away from my friends, waited for a cab ( which there was none because the roads were closed due to the Dinagyang preparations ), and decided to walk three blocks going to my aunt’s travel agency and to visit Dondon’s parlor. I arrived around 11:40am ( just imagine how i walked - haha! ). My aunt offered me a tuna sandwich because I looked harassed! haha!

After the 10 minute breaktime, we visited Dondon and he is practically doing the “Hermana Mayor” of Dinagyang 2008. He finished her on time and we went to the hotel thereafter. I texted ate rachel that we are on our way and THE TRAFFIC was so terrible! Thank GOD we had our car pass.

WESTOWN HOTEL

Finally we arrived 20 minutes pass noontime. We ( my aunt, Dondon, and me ) waited for ate rachel to fetch us in the lobby. Every step that we took in going to the second floor was so relaxing. On the left side of the hallway, there lies her room. “Could this be it? Am I meeting her again? Will I melt like the last time? Am I gonna fall asleep in her bed? ( I only had 4 hours of sleep last night - I was preparing for the debut tomorrow )”

The door opened, her mom was there. We were asked to sit down, so I sat on the nearest thing that can be used as a chair - the BED! There was silence. The bathroom door opened. “Am I really here? Is this a dream? I am only wearing jeans, sneakers, and the school shirt for crying out loud ( FRESH from SCHOOL ) and I am in her room!?” And there she was. Sitti NAVARRO.

It is as if I was just a lost soul that found myself being in her hotel room together with her mom, ate rachel, my aunt, and dondon. I was busy texting Princes because she did not have the chance to take my video for tomorrow’s debut. She got to her luggage, got some few things, she made beso with me, asked me how I was doing, then went back to the bathroom.

My eyes popped as if they were saying in unison “wow!” I was really glued to the bed because my knees are so weak for me to stand and in addition, I was very sleepy. Dondon was preparing his things, ate rachel was switching channels, Sitti’s mom was sitting adjacent to the door and my aunt sat next to her. We were all watching the usual afternoon gameshows. Then, minutes later, Sitti went out again, this time with her outfit for her guesting in Boy and Kris at Sta. Barbara Golf Course - i think. Simple. Loved it!

Dondon was putting on her make up, while the rest of us sat down and watched tv. Ate rachel was leaving us from time to time to check on the band. Its close to 1:00 and I was looking at the pillow. Reminds me that I need to rest my eyes. Sitti was busy texting, and reading her book. So, I looked around.

Everything went smoothly. I felt that I was so privileged to be there just to stare at everything! They are all so accommodating. When they are all finished, we had a photo opp.

After this, we all left. I was thinking of going home, but it was 2:45? So I decided to go to the office and sleep there. On our way, I was thinking very hard. “What just happened?” The day is not yet over. My time with Sitti is not yet over.

PREPARATION

I had a three hour “nap” time in the office. Yes, I was drooling over the pillow! That’s the effect of over stressing. When I woke up, it was about 6:50pm. In less than two hours we needed to be there in the hotel again. So I jumped out and had a quick half bath in the office bathroom! IMAGINE! I changed my clothes and I went to Dondon’s parlor.

We went to the hotel and we arrived on time. Sitti was still dressed with what she wore in the afternoon. I sat on the couch and I gave her my gift. A simple photo manipulated picture. ( I had no time to think of something better than this ) That time when she was being “beautified,” she was somewhat ashamed that the room was so unorganized and that “things” are scattering everywhere. haha! Its ok. I really understand.

A few moments later, I really can’t believe that I am still there, for the second time of the day, I am still in her room, watching her and observing what she does. ( FREAKY? nope! ) Conversations started to become interesting, I get to suggest that the other stockings is better than the other, and I was able to talk. ( Its a MIRACLE! )

THE MOMENT

There we arrived at the venue. I was shaking because it was so cold! The winds were blowing hard. Minutes later, in the back stage, I saw Eileen Sison performing. She got everyone to the mood. Everybody wants to salsa! Then, I saw Dense Modesto taking pictures from the backstage. As I have observed, I saw him angling on the silhouettes from the stage above. Cool. But I did not have the guts to talk to him because I was freezing cold. I am afraid that I might shiver and quiver in front of him. haha!

Anyway, ate rachel pointed us where to sit. So basically we stayed there the whole time. Everyone was drinking beer, and smoked excessively. I could not take it anymore, I stood up and found a place for me to breathe. I was so concerned of my health that maybe my asthma will attack me to death again.

I haven’t eaten the whole night. When Sitti was performing on stage ( By the way she LOOKS AWESOME! ) I was formulating my verses for today’s debut ( Considering that it is 3 in the morning ). I looked at Sitti, and the huge number of people that wanted to hear her soothing voice, and I said to myself “I was with her today!”

I was also surprised that she mentioned my name. Thanks ate! (^-^)

Three more songs to go, I went backstage for me to have another photo opp and to let her sign my pictures of her. I was sitting in her dressing room. I prepared the marker, the pictures, and even the settings of the camera. I definitely know that after the show, super fans will try their very best to have a chance to be with her too. So I had it all. The Photo opp and everything. But what separates me from others today? I had the time of my life! I hung out with the BOSSA DIVA! And the fever that goes on and on, is still with me at this very moment. Indeed, another day, another story to tell!

Ate Sitti, Thank you so much for the opportunity! Ate Rachel, Thank you for the warm accommodation. We’ll see each other next time - HOPEFULLY. (^-^)

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My alarm rang 5.22am and I rushed hurriedly to the bathroom to have a good shower. Oh yeah! Today I was thinking about what will happen to us with our lunch with Sitti. What will we talk about? Who is she up close and personal? The clock was ticking and I was fixing my things for school then I texted princes to wake up because our class starts at 7. Combining all the stress that we had for the past days plus the successful Fashion Show last night for Ateneo de Iloilo and the thanksgiving dinner we had as production staffs of the show, the week will not be complete without meeting Sitti. So yes. 30 minutes I arrived at school and checked my phone for any new messages. As I was walking around the campus, I greeted people with a great, big smile! hehe! Little did I know that our schedule was changed to 7.30. So being 30 minutes early.. I sat at the “pink house.” Different people passed by as I was holding my cellphone, texting everyone to come. I contacted Jam that the schedule was changed.

What kept me so pressured is that we have class LITERALLY an hour before our lunch with ate Sitti and the fact that I dont know where’s our room. So again I waited and asked people if they know where is our room assignment. Then they told me its in room 201. haha! My heart was pounding as I stroll down the hallway, constantly checking my left and right if I’d see one of my classmates.. I was thinking of a lot of things. I stopped for a while and I bought a bottle of water at the canteen. I gulped and went on. Phew! (it’s four hours before meeting her).

I am the first to arrive in our room, I turned on the air conditioners, turned all the lights, arranged the chairs, and sat down at the very corner. I looked around. Sheesh! Nobody’s there! Haha! Im the only one in the room then I got my phone, informed them that I am in 201. Princes replied that she just woke up – its 7.18 that time. I told her to come to school so that we can talk about the lunch. I begged her to go and she said yes. Haha! She’ll go to school even though she’ll arrive late. Heehee! Jam on the other hand – I know he’s so tired serving at their NEWLY OPENED restaurant – didn’t reply to my messages but as I turned my head I saw him running towards me. Haha! By this time 27 people are in class and 8 minutes before the bell. And I paused… thinking… What will happen later on with Sitti?

The tension is there and I can hear my stomach growling. I had milk for breakfast and I feel the butterflies. Hahaha! So weird! Jam held my hand and said “Dai, ok ka lng?” And I replied “Uh. Yes?” And I checked my digital time and I was starting to become nervous. Nervous in the sense that we have three hours for class and limited time for preparing before the set lunch.

I texted ate Rachel telling her to have a safe trip. Then the class started. Our teacher announced that we would transfer to another room! I was so nervous that it took me 5 minutes to consciously realize that there are only three people left and that everyone went out. I stood up and walked slowly…

I was going down the stairs together with Jam and I got hold of my phone and texted ate Flora Joy. I texted princes. I texted everybody just to keep myself focused. You know how it feels to have a chance to eat with someone you look up to. Heehee! I know my phone is so angry at me right now for over using it. Haha! So the orientation started and Jam sat beside me to talk about the details. He confirmed that the crew will be preparing our lunch on his go signal. Yeah! We were SO NERVOUS that time! We didn’t even had our attention to the teacher. Haha! It’s Filipino class! What can you expect? Haha!

We talked and talked and I texted Princes asking her where she was. She said she’s on her way. (Thank God). Minute after minute, the hands of the clock didn’t fail to amaze us. Princes ARRIVED!!! Yay! With another look its already 9.29! So by this time we were expecting that they (ate Sitti and the others) just arrived. So again, I texted ate Rachel confirming if they are already here.

I finished my bottle of water up to the last drop of it as the disturbing sound of the bell rang signaling us that it is time! It’s time for us to get back into action! It’s time for us to finalize things. After everyone went out, Jam told us that he will go to Uncle Tom’s to prepare the place. Princes and I went to the office and to other places to buy some gifts for them. You could imagine us running around the store! Haha! So Jam was asking us if its time for him to let the chef cook the specialty of the house. We told him to wait for the signal. He replied OK. Again I texted ate Rachel and she told us that if its ok with us to have lunch with them nalang instead of them having lunch with us. So yeah. We know Sitti is very tired and needs a LOT of rest. So we told Jam the news and its ok with him. From the office, I called up a cab (since we are still underage and have no driver’s licenses) and it was fast! It arrived moments after. Next stop, we instructed the driver to head down to the New Uncle Tom’s at Diversion Road so that we can fetch Jam. Ate Rachel told us that we would see each other at Breakthrough. And the butterflies are everywhere. Haha! Everyone’s so excited, nervous, and relaxed at the same time! What? Haha!

And there we were. Tired. Exhausted. Excited. Shy. Skeptical. We sat down, looked at each other and said in vernacular “Why in the world are we here?” Seconds later, many people are passing by. We were shaking. Haha! Ate Rachel informed us that she is waiting at the entrance. So we stood up and walked.

So OK. 9 paragraphs later… haha! This is the part where we laid eyes on ate Sitti. Heehee! We went in (as expected… SHY) and I saw her in a simple purple blouse, skinny jeans, and a pair of white havaianas flip flops. (call me KEEN OBSERVANT! Haha!) We sat down and ate Sitti welcomed me with a smile – simultaneously peeling her lanzones. She introduced me to her friends and I just stayed speechless but maintaining my smile?! Haha. Sitting right next beside her and surrounded by people I barely know feels like I committed a crime and they are the jury. Phew! But it’s a privilege.

The three of us sat there. Looking at the people around us. WE felt like were gonna MELT! Then ate flora joy called. (thank goodness) this gave me time to relax. She’s a life-saver! She told me not to be shy and everything…Then I handed my phone to ate Sitti. . .

Everybody was busy talking and eating the lanzones. But the three of us looked pale and shocked. Haha! As ate Sitti was talking with ate flora joy and ate MJ, I looked at the faces of Jam and Ces! And my oh my!! They look scared and they wanted to leave! I told them NO because it would be shameful to walk out. And we’re doing this together.

I showed my work to ate Sitti and gave her one copy and she autographed ours too. By that moment, I lost track of time. Its as if I was just there and the time stood still. I kept on texting ate flora joy that I AM SO SUPER SHY! Three messages I think? Sitti asked me some things like how old I am, what’s my course and etc. (I can’t remember because I was making sure that I was answering her correctly! Oh my!) She was so tired. And I perfectly understand that. She had her gig last night in Tacloban. (^-^) I was really shy to talk to her! Haha! (I know it is not me to be the shy type) Anyways, I told her that I have a package for her and for ate flora joy (haha! As promised ate joy). I gave her some Iloilo delicacies placed inside a “cool” box. Hehe! I hope she’ll eat those. Haha! The food was slowly being served (I know the place was so busy that time because every Saturday, many people love to eat near the beach).

Again I had a bottle of water. The three of us, to be exact, had water. We’re still in our ever SHY state! Haha! I don’t know if one of us was melting because I haven’t heard a murmur from them. Really, it was so weird! They are not like this! Ever! Wihhihihi! So everyone started to eat. And I noticed that only the three of us had empty plates! Gosh! Ate Sitti frequently checked on us and told us to eat. Ahaha! She was smiling and I told her that We ARE REALLY SHY!!! Then she gave me a tap on the back. I felt better. But still SHY. Haha! I got a roll of fresh lumpia (my favorite) and started to take a bite. I turned to Princes and they got one too.. Kuya Steven was telling us to eat! Haha! I looked at ate Rachel and she also told us to eat. Hehe! So we dug in! I was really surprised that I ate less but yet felt full! Haha! Maybe its because of the “shyness” part! I can’t believe it. I had fish and hmm.. sinigang and little rice! That’s all! Haha! Even when holding the fork and spoon I was SHAKING! Grrr!

After eating, I was just sitting there and listening to their conversations. (Not that I am a gossip or anything) But just listening to what they have to say. And as their conversation with one another went on, I was busy thinking… I am so blessed to be given this opportunity to be with Sitti and her friends. With every fraction of a second, every tick of the time, I can’t believe that I am sitting 4 inches next to her. Haha! My happiness cannot be explained with that experience. Ate Sitti apologized to me many times that they are so tired. For me, I should have done the same thing. Apologize to her for being there and disturbing her. (-.-)

The time came that they need to go in order for her to rest before her show at SM City. She stood up and waved everyone good bye, and we did the same thing. Outside when we were about to leave… She again told us that she was so sorry for feeling so exhausted. I know for a fact that she really is and she looks really tired too. We had our good-byes and thanked her, ate Rachel and her mom for having us for lunch. Jam gave them the package and we walked with smiles that cannot be erased from our memories. From there, we called a cab and left. Princes and I dropped Juan at Uncle Tom’s and the both of us went to SM City to watch a movie and reflect on what just happened… (haha! Super shy!) So we immediately went to watch UNREST. . . and as the film was rolling we were talking and talking and everytime something gross would come out of the screen, we just spook ourselves and then continue to talk.

After the movie, which was pretty good, we circled the mall looking for new books. Then, the time reached 4.43 and Sitti is about to perform. We were in the 2nd floor that moment. She came out with her simple gray and black dress and sang Tatooed on my Mind. I was looking at the people around who were trying to get close enough to have her picture taken! Then it hit me. I was with her for lunch and not ONE photo was taken. For me it’s not that important. Being with her that time is worth a whole lot more than a picture. The memory of this day cannot be printed in any special paper! It is embedded in my mind and that’s what makes it great!

Ate Sitti, Thanks for everything! You are truly a role model. (^-^)

* when we first sat on the chair, i started the stopwatch. (just to give you the details) heehee.

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I miss my brushes, i miss my sketchpad, i miss my pencil, i miss my pastels, i miss my charcoal, i miss my canvas, i miss my acrylic paints, i miss my faber castell eraser, i miss my palette, i miss the colors, i miss the smell of varnish, i miss my camera, i miss the illustration board, i miss my 36-shot films, i miss ART, i miss PHOTOGRAPHY, i miss everything! (-.-)

Yes. I miss it! And I can’t stand looking at pictures from the past of me receiving a plaque or shaking the hands of prominent people. I just can’t stand it! It reminds me of the days . . . The days where i used to be with ART, enjoying galleries and admiring the artworks of ilonggo artists and photojournalists. For the past years, i have been immersed with art and their creators. I have met local ilonggo artists competing nationally and even internationally and yet I didn’t even tell them how much i admire their eye for beauty. (-.-)

Its been a while since I last held a brush. I truly miss it! And everytime I see my brother sketch his anime . . . I am so jealous! haha! Why? He’s currently taking up Software Engineering and he has some extra time to do his sketches! As for me? I am taking nursing! (which i do enjoy) But, time is really an issue! I don’t have time for art! (-.-) hmmph! If I do have the time, it might be 12am to 1am! My schedule is so hectic and with that. . . I desperately need to relax and find some time to rest! Who am I kidding? haha!

I admire those people who are really passionate of what they are doing. I admire those who HAS the time to visualize and put their visualizations to the canvas.

Most of the people i have met in the art industry were, for me, are the best artists in town. Plus, they constantly visit the office because they are friends of my dad.

Hmmm… So pretty much I have seen their works in various art galleries here in Iloilo and I know what materials they use and what are their different styles (they purchase their art materials from the office) heehee! (^-^)

I am so blessed to be surrounded by talented artists and yet each and everytime i see them enjoying their hobby, i imagine myself enjoying it too. Facing reality - I want to finish Nursing and get a time to do some art! hahaha! Eventhough nursing is “now” close to my heart the same as with art and photography, I want the world to know that I can do it even if my hands are tied! I don’t want to graduate feeling sorry for myself that I left art behind. I want to graduate and become a nurse and at the same time be proud of my talents!

I don’t know why God gave me “A LOT” of talents. . . (-.-) I can’t even use them all… hai. I need an answer.

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i just can’t get enough of workloads this day. *sigh*

I woke up 5.00am this morning just to go to school and take the tests. It was raining then and my dad is so sick - he still managed to drop me off the university.

During our Primary Health Care we had a very LONG discussion about Blood Pressure and we also had this test that I cant shake off my head! I should have gotten 18 over 20 but when I knew that tiny erasures can make my answer wrong… I GOT MAD! Three numbers that had erasures where my answers are all correct were considered wrong which left me with 15 points! I really find it unfair! I didnt cheat! Heck I didnt even think about cheating! But why is it that Our Clinical instructors consider it as a form of cheating? Hmmph. I tried really hard to put 110% of my effort on that test and it turns out, due to some errors, it made me think that I did not do well. Yes. I know its just FIVE points but . . . I need to step up the pace! Its so hard to cover up my past grades sa quizzes. hai

Today was also our HANDS on sa sphygmomanometer and to practice with our partners. It was fun! hahaha! Ces and I really had fun! heehee! (at least i had a little fun after the disappointing quiz result.) wah! I was pumping and pumping transferring my anger into the bulb! hahaha! whoah! but anyway, there’s no time so we were dismissed. 11.30am

I asked Princes if its ok if we’ll eat at the office (my treat). That time i was really expecting that the package of ate flora joy will be on the desk by the time we have arrived. Five minutes later there i saw it! hahaha! Right on top of the table! hahaha! Princes sat down and I sat on my dad’s chair. I opened the package and LOVED every bit of it! haha! Thanks ate flora joy! (^-^) I immediately picked up the phone and called her up! heehee! THANKS ate joy! XP
We then had lunch from Greenwich. Hmm… My dad’s not there and his secretary had her lunch break so im in charge! haha! As Ces was enjoying her meal, one customer wanted to buy something! hahaa! He asked me if magkano. I told him the price (THAT time i was not even sure if my price is right!) Then he paid and went off. When the secretary arrived, i asked her how much is the item that i sold. She told me the real price and i was shocked! I overcharged! (UNINTENTIONALLY) hahaha! but it was just a difference of Php 3.00 <– goodness! hahaha!

We still have class at 1.00pm so we went back to school. Then we had another test! Its english and boy we didnt expect it! hahaha! Knowing that we will definitely FLUNK the test, we were betting on who will have the least grade among us four. hahaha! It turns out mine’s not the least! hahaha! Then they started teasing me of being a “nerd” ain’t that right ces? hahaha! Grrr…. Im not a NERD! hahaha! yikes!

Next subject –> PE! Aaaah! When will this day end!? hahaha! We had yet another test! haha! we (well, i personally) studied about the history of dance! And the test covered MUSIC!? hahaha! That is so WaaaaaaaaaaaaaahH!HH!H! Am I that dumb to study for the wrong test?! hahaha! but luckily i had a passing score. haha! GOSH! we were dismissed by 5.00pm because the RAIN was so HEAVY! Jam and I took a cab, he was dropped off sa house niya and as for me, I went to the office.

sa office.. No sign of dad! hai. Customers (super annoying and isa!), Employees vale, data check, Money count and even closing the office was my job! I brought lechon manok for our dinner and I took a cab going home!

haha! Soo stressed out! I arrived here and I checked my dad’s temperature. 40 deg C… woah! That’s hot.So i did what i have to do. monitor everything and call up his doctor…(im just a freshman! haha! and well, that’s the time that i felt like i was already a certified NURSE! (sacrificing my study time for the sake of my PATIENT) hahaha! <– keep on dreaming reg! hahaha! I have 3 years ahead of me. hahaha! Oh well.

I left my dad na and i will be back to check up on him. i played Sitti’s mybossanova album for him! ahahaha! (thanks ate joy!!!) Hmm… i hope the weather will be fine tomorrow… hai. STUDY TIME….

–> My day as a STUDENT, MANAGER, and NURSE! what are the odds of that?! hahaha! i don’t think i can live like this everyday! heehee! This is more than the usual “multi-task” hahaha! ok. still have test tomorrow!!! hahaha!

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” I was sitting there looking pale and weak. A strange feeling of tachycardia invaded my conscious understanding of the given problem. Twenty grueling minutes left before stepping out of the classroom. I trembled. I closed my eyes and looked for the answer beneath the channels of my brain. Fourteen minutes left before the end of the exam. There was still no sign of progress. I began to tap the pen on my head. But, still, no answer. I scratched all my solutions off the first part, then scratched the second. I rewrote everything with no second to waste. Then. I finished the test, never caring about the correct solution and never worrying about what the outcome would be. I was happy to finish it without any blanks. The sad part is, my first draft of solutions was partially correct. Nervousness. Over-doing the problem. - the effects of stress. ”

Yes. For three days, our brains were squeezed. We are all tired! We are all stressed out. We are all anxious of what our scores will look like. So far, all the preparations, all the practices, all the readings, all the researches, its all done! (-.-) The question is, “Did we do well in our prelim exams?”

PRELIMS is our time to show what we’ve got. It is our chance to give the highest grade that we can give inorder not to bear the heavy load on the two terms ahead. It is our time to ace all subjects, pass all tests, and present a good grade to our parents next year. If we flunk this term, we will have to “again” strive our hardest just to maintain or to increase our grades. Here are my insights on our exams.

Primary Health Care
A taste of our own medicine. It turns out it was not the test we were expecting. It was not even worth the sweat that we excreted studying for that subject! (joking) Yes it is difficult. For a fact that it was all in MULTIPLE CHOICE, definitely we had four choices. Shading the wrong answer is already crucial (no ERASURES!). Plus, the downside of choices, it makes us think more! Also, there’s only a 25% chance that we can get the CORRECT answer. So if we know the answer 100%, then good. hahaha!

Related Learning Experience
Another MULTIPLE choice exam. This time, a more challenging one. In PHC we were asked to study about fresh facts, history, different “common” morbidity and mortality causes, surveys, Target Client Lists, Occupational Nursing and all other stuffs like that. In RLE? We underestimated the subject. Thinking that it would just be a step for us to pass - it’s not. Although, we certainly differ in our manner of perception… heehee! Proceeding…

ENGLISH
As always. We never study for this subject. “Peace Miss! You’re the best teacher that’s why we don’t bother to review.”

RELIGION
We had a different set of exam. Good thing. Other sections were complaining. And we were all like “… uhh. it’s easy” haha! We were asked to make a poster and a prayer in our exam, plus, merely, 50 points covering the whole lesson. Cool! You rock “Professor Sr. Gemma Moralita, SPC!” heehee! yay!

CHEMISTRY LECTURE
Trust me. It’s so confusing! The topics were not completely discussed and we were like “clueless” on the answers. Haha! A simple “Eeny Meeny Miney Moe” should do the trick! We prepared so much for the solving part and hey look, It didn’t come out except for one or two.

CHEMISTRY LABORATORY
Wah! Another stressor! Gosh! It was so freaky. My hands were shaking, and my palms are indeed sweating profusely. Who could have thought that chemistry can bring chills up to my spine. Pass it or Flunk it, I don’t really care. All I know is, I studied hard for this subject and surprisingly, some topics were not covered and NEW topics were included. I was not informed that the names of the solutions will come out based on our experiments! haha! Whatever… (-.-)

PHYSICAL EDUCATION
Even though we never had a formal discussion in this subject, we have the initiative to read the books! And yeah, it’s a whole lot of STRESS! We don’t know if we will focus on the “dance” history or the “music” basics! So, we studied both. It seems, the exam covered MOSTLY the MUSICAL NOTES and note reading end everything with notes! Gosh! haha! Thankfully, we were prepared… haha! Awesome!

FILIPINO
The easiest of all, i think. Thanks Miss!

PHYSICS LECTURE
Wah. One word. “PASS.” I know everyone will pass in this subject. heehee! The test was not so easy and not so hard. I bet all will pass. Cramming is really a good thing - for me, though.

PHYSICS LABORATORY
One word “FLUNK.” Still physics but this time, i was confused with my solution. With my state of “uncertainty” i think I will flunk this subject. BUT, Let’s hope and pray na WE WILL ALL PASS…

The 15 hours was done. 1 1/2 hours in every subject.. It’s all done! Yahoo! What’s the best thing after 15 hours of brain BUSTERS?

BRAIN FOODS!

” FOR THOSE WHO OFFERED THEIR PRAYERS, THANK YOU SO MUCH… ”

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WHO SAID THAT RETURN DEMONSTRATIONS WERE TERRIFYING?

MEET: THE FUTURE NURSES

Oh yeah. They are not afraid. They are ready to face the C.I. one more time! They are all armed with … PILLOWS? Yes! These FLUFFY gadgets are their only weapons to defeat the CLINICAL Instructors. FOUR hours of waiting, they finally found a way to spy on their enemies…

MEET: AGENT JAM

The use of unnoticeable walkie talkies gave them the edge to spy. “Who are the C.I.s in the demo room?” … “How many student nurses per C.I.?” And the conversations went on. Meanwhile, other agents decided to sit on the floor to feel any “eruptions.” haha!

MEET : JAM’S ANGELS

These angels (feeling! haha!) had sacrificed their time in practicing with their PILLOWS just to monitor the vibrations of the floor! Yes. It’s TEAM-WORK!

++ THESE WERE THE (wacky) THINGS WE DID IN OUR DEMO. ++

SUCCESS!

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NO ONE WAS HURT WHEN WE DID THIS. ALTHOUGH THE WALKIE TALKIES WERE BORROWED BY THE C.I.S, THEY RETURNED IT TO US AND EVEN ASKED US WHERE TO BUY IT. ALSO, OUR RETURN DEMONSTRATION WAS BOTH BED-MAKING AND POSITIONING, THAT EXPLAINS WHY WE NEED PILLOWS AND OTHER STUFF. THE POINT WAS, IN RETURN DEMOS, NO ONE SHOULD BE AFRAID. IT IS JUST PLAIN FUN IF YOU MAKE IT FUN. TO NOTE, THE CLINICAL INSTRUCTORS HERE ARE OUR FRIENDS SO THE WORD “ENEMIES” WAS JUST USED TO FIT INTO THE STORY.

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Acrylic on 14 x 18 inch canvas

I didn’t think that I could finish an artwork today. But hey! I have done it. I am thinking of completing my collection. I’ll be adding 19 more if I have the time. Most of these pieces will be abstract and believe it or not I have a story hidden within each line and color. Hahaha! This was carefully thought out. I had two hours of thinking and an hour of executing… hmm..

Hope this one has a visual impact. Its been so long since I last held a brush. The acrylic tubes were a stress relief. Hahaha!  I might hang this in my wall…

Criticisms are encouraged… (^-^)

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This week, I have been investing my time doing Ramiele Malubay’s website. Yes, I sleep mostly at 3am and wake up at 1pm. Now that she has been eliminated in American idol, Did I just waste my entire summer vacation?

I guess, things happen for a reason. With that, I have learned so many things in web designing in just days. I met “arlene” a fellow web designer, a part of zen-graphics.com company, (she’s a filipina! i just knew) who is a computer science graduate and now she has her master’s degree in business. She briefed me about doing the site of Ramiele and that She will give me the liberty to incorporate my designs in it. I am very thankful really for the opportunity.

When I got this news, e-mails flooded my inbox. Before, I thought that was just a scheme… Hence, It was NOT a scheme. She (arlene) gave me my new e-mail address under the domain’s name and she even told me that the site is now ready for my static pages. I was so surprised.

Now that Ramiele is gone in the competition, She can now be free from the pressure and she can perform all she wants. She had her exposure to the public. And I know she will hit it BIGTIME here in the Philippines. Anyway, Ramiele is still incuded in the American idol tour. Haha!

www.ramieleofficial.com is the official website of Ramiele Malubay with the blessings from her father “Roger” and her family. The forum is now open for people and fans to voice out their opinions.

Certainly, this is not a waste of my vacation. The website is up and running and feedbacks are starting to fill my new inbox. We are proud to be Filipinos, and let us all be proud of Ramiele’s journey.

This is really an experience for me.

Visit http://www.ramieleofficial.com/ , for website suggestions e-mail me at webmaster@ramieleofficial.com

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